2...1...0..days!!

WOW. If we had not chosen to celebrate Christmas Day in MI we would be pretty close to moving....actually we would be moving today...maybe if Bryan did not have to work.

Monday, day 2, I pretty much caught up on shows and did laundry...again. (I already need to do it again today....) I honestly DO NOT understand how we go through so much laundry...I spend so much time sorting it (this washer does not have hot or cold settings), washing it, drying it, folding it, putting it away...then doing it all again because...well there's always A TON TO DO!

Tuesday, day 1, I got the oil changed on my car like 2,000 (at least) miles early. I personally DO NOT want to spend time within the first 1.5 months trying to figure out where to get my oil changed in between finding a job, settling the house and trying to find my way just to Walmart.... the guy was quite weirded out that I wanted to change my oil so early, but when it is 1. free and 2. necessary to stay sane when I move I really did not care and just tried to explain it to him...however not all people are great minds like myself...haha. ;)

I finally got accepted into Pinterest. I really did not understand what it was..I still kind of do not understand...but it is fun to make Pins and to look at things I could have done for Christmas...too late now because so many things have been purchased! NEXT YEAR, Valentines day, STP Day...Birthdays...it will be a fabulous resource!

I am being tortured by the wrapped presents for me next to the ones that I have wrapped for Bryan! I really, really, really want to open them!!! I cannot wait! I hope that the presents that I got for Bryan are up to Par! I. AM. EXCITED. We still do not know if we're opening here or at home...but Bryan has to decide!

I am pretty excited to move and to get going...I am just ready for a change of scenery and life. The only thing that makes me un-nerved is that everything will not fit between the two cars! I am not good with spatial thinking, especially when it is so many different shapes and, well we have nothing packed...also there is two coffee tables....ahhh!

I am pretty ready to move and come back to ski and to visit.

4...3..Days!!!

5 days until Christmas!!!

Saturday was family Christmas number one...in Greenville, MI where I am from. It was nice and Bryan's second holiday with my Mom's sister and Mom's Mom (she couldn't attend). There's always good food and lots of people in a small, crammed space...and it is hott, hott, hott because even in the 80 degree small apartment my Grandma still had on a long sleeved shirt and a sweater and was still "chilly"...I was sweating.

I have been sucking at updating but 1. I have not felt good 2. I have been tired and 3. If I do not do it early enough it frustrates Bryan when I am on the computer when we're watching TV. I need to use all of the real, high speed internet I can since we are not having real internet at our house...I would personally rather have internet than cable...but Bryan disagrees.

OMG. HGTV in the morning is weird...I don't want to know how to make a painted flower lampshade by hand OR a clay basket to hold fake eggs...I do not want that crap in my house!

Anyways. Today, Day 3 was so fun. We have to take advantage of every free day that we have because we no Michigan days left to frolic and play. We really like TC (Traverse City) and really like their wine and beers AND North Peak, a local Brewpub and restaurant that has AMAZING drinks and food. We walked around downtown which is really nice and has some cool shops and is fun to look around. The M22 store (M22 is the road that almost every Grand Traverse Winery is on or off from) had THE BEST SHIRTS EVER. It is a line called Love Michigan and of course I want a tshirt and a hoodie. The XL women's shirt which were the colors I wanted was about the size of a shirt my sister who wears a size small...so that made me feel sad and a little fat...even though it was simply because the shirt is ridiculously small LOL. (here's the website: http://www.lovemichigan.com/?wpsc-product=love-ladies-fitted-tee-deep-heather-grey) I am currently also emailing the website so that I can get one in an appropriate size! We bought a Michigan cookie cutter, and some Cherry Malt Balls. We had a great time walking around and enjoying the nice day (it was almost 40 out!)

We love the Shops at the Village (mostly the ones where you can spend $5 to taste 6 wines. So we of course went to Left Foot Charlies which is awesome. This is just a tasting room but the whole complex is an old State Hospital that has been rescued and re-purposed. We bought the greatest growler EVER and also got some loose wine to drink this week and also found a Christmas Present for Bryan's Brother. Why would anyone not go to this place it is AWESOME! We found a beverage for our New Year's in a new place and the lady was even kind enough to let us have some tastes! It was great. I am going to miss our Sunday Drives to TC!

Mostly the point in this trip was to eat our North Peak which is amazing and one of our absloute favorite places in Michigan and anywhere to go! They have egg roll wrapped mozzarella sticks that are to do for when you dip them in the pesto ranch...om nom nom. WE have never had bad food here...it's always AWESOME! We love the drinks and the food and the place!

It was a fabulous day and we had so much fun!

I am so tired that I can only relive what we did today...I'm tired and have some wicked acid reflux going on...

I am getting excited to have Christmas, have the condo clean and ot just be done...the condo needs to be cleaned before christmas...but still...I just want to be done and be moved and just come back!

6, 5 Days...

oh, man....it has been a fast two days.

Yesterday (day 6) I was supposed to work my usual three hours per week...one of the brilliant girls that is my fellow employee did not know she worked...so I was the only person available to work since our "boss/manager" is a shut-in, drunk, idiot. (there is way more...but I want to keep my calmness I have created for the next two weekends which includes moving...) I essentially was never asked to work and I am sure Friday when I go to pick up my money (he owes me for two weeks and I intend on quitting so he'll owe me for three) he will have something b**** about...and I will listen and then probably turn into vapid, mean sorority girl and make him feel less than an inch tall...of course I am usually too nice to do this...so it is more of just a wish than anything!

I am getting pretty worried that I am going to be sick for the Holidays...I have that little pain in my throat on the right side...I try to poke out the infection (these rubbery white pieces that come out when I sneeze and smell like the shallows of Bass Lake in August...*gag*)BUT when these nasty little white tonsiliths...I wish I could poke them out without puking my brains out! THAT IS ALL I NEED! To be sick for Christmas's, moving and trying to start a new life...but probably internal stress, ridiculous weather changes and not sleeping well are all contributing to my general feeling of illness...

Every year I never understand what the Holidays do to people and their level of courtesy. It is almost like Bryan and I wear invisibility cloaks when we go out and about...people rudely bump into us and sometimes seem to not notice that we are taking up the space that we are...it is just crazy to me how people are so, so, so, so RUDE! The holidays are supposed to be a time of giving and happiness OH and being nice to your fellow man! SO, I am just waiting to move and be able to hole up in the house and avoid people...I have never liked people that much (the general public) and unfortunately it is even worse when people are in their holiday haze.

Presents are pretty much bought (except one person) and wrapped....they are organized into piles either on the table or on the floor according to what house they must travel to...it is going to be interesting to see if I get everything where it is supposed to go...

We sent home four boxes of clothes that a few other things mixed in...we're pretty worried we are not going to have enough room to pack everything...but we're going to have to because there's no getting it to mom's house once we have come back from Christmas up North. We have like three outfits meaning I have to do laundry everyday to make sure there are shirts and pants for everyone to wear...socks in my case because I was dumb and accidentally only left like 3 or 4 pairs! So that is fun....

Also with moving from a rental means CLEANING. I feel like I JUST did this in the apartment. Luckily we keep the condo quite clean and we just deep deep cleaned it for a showing our landlord had about a month ago. Working less than any other employed person in the world affords me the time to clean, clean and clean and to cook and do laundry. SO hopefully next week I can get everything we do not need to the garage (that we just got emptied) and get it one step closer to being moved to Missouri. Looking back there are somethings we should have taken on the uhaul...but it was thought to be needed and we cannot change it now!

It is hard because we are going up to My Mom's house up North on Christmas Eve and Leaving there Christmas Day in the afternoon...packing up the Jeep because the Mazda will already be packed and then eating a frozen/leftover dinner...re-cleaning anything in the kitchen...re-cleaning our bathroom upstairs and sleeping then waking up...checking out with our crazy landlord and then driving. I still need to plan our driving trip because there is not frikin' way that I am going to go straight there without doing a couple fun things because it is the holidays and as of now I have no idea where we need to be when...but I can only assume the 27th we will be back in the car driving to see family.

I am just ready to be wherever we are going to be. And I want to figure out who's going to be where and what is going to happen. I also have still been looking for a small dog for protection when Bryan is gone and I am home alone...it will look precious and cute and then it will bite the crap out of people!!!

I am not nervous I am just ready to be done like I said above. I just want to leave and get it done quick like pulling off a band aid because it is very hard for me to leave Michigan because it is way, way, way, way better than Missouri. lol

7 Days!

7 Days (11 Days until Christmas!)

About 2 weeks ago I started a new bank account. I was told 5-8 business days I would receive my debit/visa card...it has been 12 Days since the first and that includes 4 weekend days...so 8 Business days. Yesterday I called PNC to ask them perhaps if they sent it to my Missouri address..NOPE...sent to the Bay City address. They told me that I can wait or I CAN PAY $10 TO GET A NEW ONE...um sorry...I have never had possession of the card...so I am NOT going to pay you MORE money to get the card I have been patiently waiting for...because I have less than 2 weeks to be moved and no longer at the address. They tried to tell me that the holidays make mail go slow...however Last Wednesday I sent out Holiday cards and people got them Friday...and I dropped them off at the last drop off time at the post office...so I find it very, very, extremely hard to believe Santa Mail has slowed the delivery of my precious card! I. NEED. MY. CARD! aaaah!

I wrapped presents today...some for Bryan some for my family some for his family...it gets hard to remember what is what...but I have very organized piles and even label what is a stocking...so hopefully it works out! It is also hard to imagine taking these presents in our car when we already have very little room for our own stuff!

I think I am beginning to believe in global warming. We are in Michigan...it has been at least 40 degrees out the past 3 days and there is absolutely NO fresh or accumulated snow in like 2 weeks...I am just going to go ahead and assume that the weather is going to just open up when we are getting ready to move...so packing the cars...driving 500 miles...and trying to just get home...the snow is going to punish us and I will never get to enjoy it :,(

#BeyondScaredStraight is on (from our DVR) and it is so intense and I just cannot concentrate!

7 Days and I am just ready to be done here...in reality it is a few more but in 7 days Bryan and I will be able to chill all day and get ready to leave MI and have some time to spend together before mayhem begins!

10, 9, 8 Days...

Weekends this next two weeks (and last weekend) are essentially all planned out for us. They're filled with Holiday Celebrations and last minute visits with people until we permanently move to Missouri and only use Michigan as a vacation state just as so many other people that I cannot stand in the summer...or on the slopes...(at least I will know where I am and also FOLLOW THE RULES OF SKIING!)

This past weekends family events included my younger Sister's formal graduation from Central Michigan University! YAY! However going to this pomp and circumstance event has only reinforced my good decision making of NOT participating in formal graduation. It is really not my taste to sit with hundreds of people that I do not know except for a sorority sister here, some other Greek mixed in the group with maybe 2 classmates...I would have had to pee the entire time because my bladder is smaller than a new born baby's and I would have had the urge to be texting everyone and possibly playing words with friends. Due to the two hour plus ceremony and driving back to the sorority house and getting all of Shannon's belongings my sister had to scurry to her Alternative Break Trip to Boston (it is a trip where she feeds and helps the poor, homeless whatever). So that left me, my mother, my step-dad and Bryan to eat dinner in a place that had very few people, was nice and had FOOD!

Sunday, after we finally woke up, yes, I got two days to sleep in...which is fabulous because I sincerely feel that anyone who PURPOSELY wakes me up super early EVERY weekend day every week has a seat reserved for them in the deepest, darkest, hottest circle in hell...I mean not to be a "bia" but sometimes you just need to sleep in and have a lazy day...

We decided that we would go to the outlet mall (we never went to the outlet mall) and go to downtown Detroit to get pastries (that we should not eat) from our FAVORITE bakery, Astoria in Greektown! om nom nom nom. We ate a couple of our favorite breweries (we split lunch between two places because we're awesome!), then we went to the "D" and got our sugar ladened goodies!! We somehow found our way to Somerset mall which is the most amazing mall not only in Michigan but probably one of the nicer ones in the continental US (it has an option to Valet park your car...). They have a "normal side" but the normal side is still very posh and filled with many awesome shops. THEN we crossed the beautiful skywalk that has people movers like they have at airports. It was just as pretty and awesome and even more beautifully decorated than the "normal side". The most exciting part of this extremely posh side of the mall is the home to Michigan's Tiffany & Co. I could have stood there all day frikin' staring at anything and everything that sparkled. They had small versions of the beautiful windows that they have displayed at the New York store! It was exciting and awesome and I was like a little kid in a super nice Toys 'R Us!

We made reservations for this Christmas Train ride at Crossroads Village which is a part of Genesee County Parks and Recreation. IT. WAS. AMAZING. The little village is so cute and amazing! The train is a restored one from like the 1860's and it was actually from the wild wild west!!! It was BEAUTIFUL! It even got Bryan in the Christmas Spirit...which he told me was impossible. We were both singing and having a great time! We even listened to Christmas music on our drive back to Bay City! It is one of those things that we will never forget and if we're around to go again we would totally do it! It. Was. Magical!! :)

I am not nervous about moving. I am more worried about how things will be when we actually live there for an extended period of time...not just 4 days. It is easy to think that it will be perfect...because living in Bay City has been nearly perfect..but who knows what Missouri will bring! In two weeks will be in Missouri...or at least almost to Missouri!

Terra Nova is on and it takes concentration to follow this show...WE. LOVE. THIS. SHOW...among many, many others!

11 Days...

With 11 days left all I can think about is getting the tears over when I leave my mom's house and when we leave the condo...and we get to Missouri and do not have to worry about if we reserved a rental or will make it on time for our return flight. Last night as we walked through the door the blaring TV had a news blip about busy holiday travel and that flights are getting backed up fast. My immediate reaction was a quick drop of the stomach and heart and an immediate "BRYAN DID YOU GET OUR TICKETS BACK FOR AFTER CHRISTMAS!?!?!" I obviously know that we are driving and not returning (well, immediately) but that is just what I am used to...so I am ready to be just in one place for, hopefully, a significant amount of time!

Slippers. I used to only wear them because I felt I had to wear them on Christmas when they were given to me...especially if they were ones that my Grandma made me..however any other day that was not Christmas you would not catch me wearing them. My feet are always sweaty, even in flip flops...like grossly sweaty...like it's summer and I have flip flops on and my feet have puddles under them making my flip flops slippery. Although right now my feet are still sweaty and gross...they are FREEZING...all of the time, so naturally I've been wearing my EMU slip-ons or my Gap booty sock things. It's weird. I think that I have caught Bryan's cold appendages...unfortunately. It's more clammy than cold...but still...I now have it.

Why are shows always so unrealistic. That's really all on that...but who literally goes for a roll in the hay? Hay is itchy...it makes me break out in hives. Barns typically do not smell the greatest...even if they're animal free...I love my stories that I watch...but they're so unrealistic...no wonder so many people in my generation act so strangely between Disney movies and all of these love story shows and reality programs they think they're gonna drink like snooki, fall in love like Cinderella and sing about EVERYTHING! lol

well...I just realized I NEED to watch Dexter...and apparently The Office, Parks & Rec, Community or Up All Night was NOT new last night...so I need to watch Dexter, go for another walk and then figure out WTF we 're going to (if we do anything)do for Shannon's Graduation...so...I gotta get on it!!! ALSO I need to go tanning (NEED!)

11 Days and I am so excited to move...I am tired of Bay City...I love Bay City...but I am 1. sick of my job 2. ready to live in a place a crazy woman does not own and 3. I want to have a home not just a temporary place of living.

12 Days...

This is what my life has become...sitting on this UGLY floral patterened couch, watching our FANTASTIC HD TV...stuffing my face with either lunch or carrots and GARLIC Hummus (all day long when I'm not eating real food like chili, leftovers, nuts or salad)

I just got done stuffing my face with River Rock Chili (om nom nom) and garlic bread, which is like nothing you can get anywhere else...and so now I am for THE FIRST TIME watching The Hangover Part II...which is a tragedy it so late because it is surely to late to put it on my Christmas list because I am sure it will be a movie I want to watch at least thirty-five to forty more times! Hopefully when I am officially in Missouri I will not have the time to watch the Hangover series hundreds of times over! (so far Hangerover two seems exactly like the original but in Thailand....)

Today I am not stressing, worrying about or whatever about moving. I am however sad about the fine eating establishments that we are leaviing behind in Bay City, MI...I mean that sounds absolutely ridiculous but they are SO SO SO SO GOOD! I know of ONE place well TWO places in St. Charles that are amazing...and I can only assume that there are more that are undiscovered to me! So at least I get to look forward to finding new places that are comparable (or better) to the ones in Bay City!

Every night I make pick dinner, I make dinner, I serve dinner, I pick up after dinner...knowing that we go out on Monday's to Latitude (when we're in Bay City) and that usually Thursday or Friday we go out again...WHY should I have to pick if we go out or where we go...I spend every other night making sure we have the ingredients for dinner, for lunch, for breakfast and then I choose what we will eat, I figure out how to make it and then I make it and then we eat it. I do not understand how it is difficult for someone ELSE to decide if we're eating in or out...

Bryan just called me to tell me he is on the road today for some project at work...which I appreciate because than at least I know he is not in Midland. However...when I ask about dinner why does it have to become a frustrating disagreement! So, NOW, because Bryan is grumpy pants because of work I get to pick because saying "well we won't eat" is a false statement because I cannot go three hours without eating...and dinner is my favorite meal and Bryan needs to eat dinner so that he can take his special pill that is supposed to fix his blood sugar...so I cannot even bluff! AND to top it off now I feel like an A-hole because Bryan was just calling to be nice!

Now I am just going to sit here, watch my movie, wrap presents so that they get done and then figure out dinner...as usual.

Today the only thing stressing me out is frikin' DINNER!!!!

13 Days...

I never thought that I would work at place that values stupidity more than the Deli I work at downstairs from the condo. They act like dicing meats and cheeses and neatly placing these cubes on a tray covered in decorative lettuce takes a degree in some form of culinary rocket science. I can guarantee you that it doesn't; common sense tells us this and my vast experience proves it (I have a simple Bachelor's degree in Education from Central Michigan University..NOT Rocket Science!) This was essentially the start to my day...because I of course, now, have very little to do within the walls of the condo. Another form of stupidity I work with is 19 and 20 year old's that make this job their careers and have no other lofty goals to obtain...working at this deli is it...I mean seriously if these were my goals in life I would want to go to the roof of the building and jump onto the fancy SUV's below. I could go on and on and on about how much stupidity surrounds this place of employment...but 1. it would take way too long (too much energy...) 2. Who really has not worked at a place that requires stupidity to be successful (yes, I believe at the deli the more stupid you are the more successful you will be in the eyes of our "boss")

I tracked down the rest of the needed addresses (all two of them) and filled out the envelopes and personalized each one to make it more festive...otherwise you're just stuffing an envelope with a card wal-mart printed out (and I spent 2.5 hours creating and deciding on) and making it very impersonal. While I realize many of my friends and family do this...I strive to be different and to make people feel important...it is probably whatever part of teacher is left in me...you find something about each person (or family in this case) and share it with them...I dont' know...Let's just say I will not and SHOULD not be writing for Hallmark anytime soon! I just hope that people enjoy the cards and feel special with the special personalization (LOL)

We LOVE and most likely should own stock in any seasoning that has the ingredient Garlic in it...we eat it on everything...EVERYTHING! Today I feel as though I used extremely too much as it is like almost, about 3 hours later and I am still drinking water like a camel that has been on an expedition for 3 weeks. We are currently trying to eat more veggies, more fruit, more whole grains and less carbohydrates. This makes creating meals easy but also difficult as EVERYTHING has carbs. Today we had chicken, yellow squash, zucchini, grape tomatoes and sliced carrots with lots, lots (too much) garlic (2 kinds) seasoning and finally mixed with a Philadelphia Creme Dinner mix...which also involved Garlic...so lots of garlic. Bryan said it was perfect, just right and that he wasn't lying (his words). I however have drank enough water for three people in the last 3 hours.

As a part of our quest to lead a healthier lifestyle we have started walking (more healthy than we already live...we already eat the same...I just add more veggies and use less regular pasta and now use whole grain, veggie filled pasta..lol). NOW if you know ANYTHING about Michigan you know that it will be sunny out, say that it is 35 out but then--you look at the "Feels Like:" area of the weather.com forecast and it says "Feels Like: 22" and surely no one in their right mind wants to go and walk..maybe ski, maybe sled, maybe snowmobile...but NOT GO RECREATIONAL WALKING! One can imagine that at night it is only colder (and they'd be right, it is!)...and it is much colder..the "Feels Like becomes closer to feels like 12 (that may be dramatic for today...but that is most likely what it is on any other given winter evening in MI).

With this obstacle of freezing weather and Bryan's lack of cold weather love that I have a sick passion for, we have started "Mall Walking". NO, we do not go in our matching yogging suits, NO, we do not swing our arms vigorously with each step, NO we do not get into like some of our senior counterparts that we watch while we walk--we do wear tennis shoes and we do have a routine...but we most certainly do not appear to be mall walkers until about our third lap around. I am just glad that we are out getting exercise after dinner. I go for walks during the day...but usually after dinner and doing the dishes I need to do something because otherwise I want to go to sleep!!! TRY MALL WALKING! :)

I am still excited to move. The more days I have to work downstairs the more excited I get to move and the more I want to move like within 24 hours of working because 1. that means I do not have to work there anymore and 2. I will hopefully get one of the new "REAL" jobs that I have been applying and phone interviewing for!

I now need to figure out if I am road tripping the Mazda down early so that we can drive only one vehicle after Christmas...but I am horrible at finding flights and Bryan has been too busy to do it for me (he is my Ask Jeeves of Southwest.com...so hopefully we get that locked up! :)

15, 14 Days...

Today I realized that the parking lot engineers do not have the same degree as someone who builds large skyscrapers! Parking lots are inherently dangerous...so why in the *heck* would you design one like someone who has never lived in America would!?! (like the one at Bay City's Walmart...or most other establishments in this town) There is not access drive to the road...but there is a fake intersection with stop signs and special lines... however you must cut through the entire frikin' parking lot to get to this stop sign that is the ONLY exit to this WHOLE, LARGE parking lot (that has WAY more than just the Super Walmart!) It is absolutely ridiculous and extremely, extremely dangerous as everyone(most people) drives like an a-hole in this town (as in most other towns...) SO, today moving did not stress me out...the frikin' Parking Lot did...AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I. Hate. Parking. Lots!...AND stupid drivers.

Today we also decided upon pictures for our Christmas card...it is the most Christmas'ee thing that we have done this year yet...they turned out pretty fabulous. That (creating the cards online) took up most of my day...so that was pretty great because I really did not want to do laundry or pack up Bryan's 100's of T-shirts and locate the UPS store. Currently I AM ATTEMPTING to get addresses...I of course have mine saved in my fancy address book on my computer which is also synced on my droid...however the addresses I must get for Bryan's friends I do not have...some I could find but TWO I cannot...and now I am done trying (after at least 20 frikin' long minutes)...white pages claims to be free but keeps taking me to their "sponsored site" RIDICULOUS!

Hopefully tomorrow I will get the cards sent out...meaning I must walk down the street to the post office...LOL

14 Days...plus Christmas and I will BE HOME! Finally!

18...17...16 Days...

So I am not going to "Journal" about my weekend...because it was pretty stressful and pretty fast. We left early Friday morning for Missouri where the house is...of course right now we live in Michigan and it is December and therefore it snowed (which we've been lucky because sometimes it starts in October...). I swear to f'ing the Spirit in the Sky that Michiganders forget how to drive in the snow even though most people have probably been doing it since they had their learner's permit...so it is BEYOND ME how people drive like such idiots in freshly fallen snow...it is quite irritating and it for sure brings my stress level up, up and up.

After the irritating, stressful and painful (I had to pee so bad for like 70 minutes that it physically hurt to stand, walk, and to pee...) We got through security very quickly with our A list tickets...however we were the very last people to board the plane...so we did not even sit next to one another...which was fine...because at this point I needed to be AWAY from Bryan and his grumpiness....

Of course I got an end row seat...whatever. HOWEVER...I was sitting next to a gentleman and his wife...and yet he leaned away from her and encroached on my space. This of course pissed me off...why do you need to have your elbow in my rib? I pushed and pushed to get my own space and after he told his wife that I was rude and should have paid for two seats I just looked at him and jabbed him in the funny bone...seriously. Eff you dude...I paid for a whole seat...not a seat where i have to lean into the isle and get hit every five seconds by people walking and dilly dallying about! SO THAT SUCKED!

Thankfully I had downloaded "Sucks to Suck" so I had something to read and made sure to jab him harder when I was quietly laughing at my hilarious reading material...there was an especially fabulous part about cat crazy ladies and I just lost it...and he probably has bruises!

SO the point of going "home" within four days was because Bryan needed to have a follow up for his ER trip on Thanksgiving...we went to a Doctor a half hour away (at least) because it is his whole family's Doctor...we must have went in with high expectation of awesomeness because we did not really like her. Bryan can choose to have her be his general doctor...but I will find someone 1. closer and 2. who is running 45 minutes late and treating me like I am some fatty fat fat person who does not know how to lead a healthy lifestyle. She did not sit down with Bryan and explain the medicine she was prescribing, or ask us about our eating habits or lifestyle choices...she just said drink less, eat less, and shove this pill down your throat. I guess I had a spoiled life in the medical field growing up...but I feel all doctors that I have seen after being a sheltered child of Greenville, MI have taken the time to explain things to me, ask me questions and get to know me a little bit so that can try to understand why I am sick or how I can get better. So, that was quite the experience and I for sure am not driving there when there are 100's of hospitals between St. Charles and the STL...

Fortunately for us on the trip back we once again had to pass the awesome mall...I do not know the name yet...but I do know it is awesome and that they have both a Nordstroms and a Macy's and that the Victoria Secret is the largest one I have ever seen in my life. After using a VS coupon, getting an iphone charger...I learned that bryan is not "cool enough" for the apple store. I almost died laughing in the middle of the mall. I tried to explain to him that no one is cool enough for the applestore but what makes it so overwhelming is that there are about 20 more "apple workers" than actual customers...and none of them are Geniuses I learned from overhearing a conversation...so why the hell are there so many of these people milling about in Red Apple shirts? I had to force myself from touching every single Apple toy there was...because...besides the iPhone I like all of their other products and own most of them...but older versions! lol Sadly..I do prefer my Motorola Android to Bryan's iPhone...but whatever...

I still do NOT understand the frikin' smoking laws in Missouri...it has always been and always will be beyond me as to why ANYONE would want to smoke while they eat...and why it is an issue to go smoke outside...I mean honestly smoking in an establishment is absolutely disgusting...I mean I do not want to smell your effin' second hand smoke...I want to enjoy my food and not have my throat close off because I am allergic to cigarette smoke...it makes it super hard to eat my food...or rather taste it. I understand that people have the right to smoke...but I should have the right to enjoy my food without smelling and tasting smoke...because I make the choice not to smoke. WHATEVEr. I have to get used to it because only in St. Louis County (the next county over) can I enjoy eating without dying...I am so spoiled by these posh Michigan laws bahaha.

I really just wanted to stay and not come back to Michigan this past weekend. I am getting tired of getting all ready to be in St. Charles just to have to get in the rental and get back on the stupid plane. It is crazy that I do not want to come back to the Mitten but...the traveling is just crazy and I am ready to start living without putting myself on hold...mostly meaning a job...and trust me...it gets depressing and lame sitting up in this fancy pants condo...but seriously...I cannot wait to at least have a house to put together.

Well, gLee is on....and that means nothing else in the world exists...I mean clearly it is the recording...but this is the only time I have found to dedicate to gLee...and well...even though they are about the same as every episode ever...I still love it!

The only thing that has stressed me out is being in limbo between two places...oh and Bryan's frequent grumpiness...but whatever...hopefully day 15 is good...

19 Days...

Well..Once again today...19 Days left and 24 days until Christmas...I felt horrible...so...that was just a fan-f***ing-tabulous start to my day...it was just awesome.

After I decided to be motivated with life and try to accomplish stuff on my check list for moving (get a bank account, get proof of address for a new license, get PAID from my fake job...)

I first tackled getting paid...because it is f***ing ridiculous to have to wait and wait and wait to get paychecks...well cash under the table because apparently I am not worth putting on payroll...because apparently it is too difficult...which I know it is not since I used to assist with payroll at Blimpie...but he treats me like I am brainless and that this place takes a degree in rocket science to work at (by the way it doesn't...the "manager" is 19 and doesn't finish classes at Delta...) I got my money documented everything and went back up to the bed and died for a couple hours..mostly just watching some southpark online and feeling like crap.

THEN I got up...and decided it was time to go and get a new bank account that will work in Missouri...well St. Charles...and it is mostly online and on my phone that I have to pay so much for services that I might as well use it for EVERYTHING absolutely possible! I went to PNC and started to open account...the lady was nice but TALKED AND TALKED AND TALKED.. I really was not in the mood...but you gotta be nice to the people who store and manage your money...but I unfortunately had to leave and go back because I only had one legal form of ID so I had to go back which subjected me to another hour of senseless chatter...I just wanted to cry because I was 1. tired and 2. really did not feel that well.

Once I finally walked out of the bank with my precious orange folder I decided it was time to go tanning...because that of course is my solution to stress...tanning or drinking and since drinking has been out...tanning was my only choice..I also took a basket of stuff to Goodwill and went to Hallmark to get the snoopy for our peanuts band and a cute countdown to Christmas thingy...it is so cute! SO after my dose of Vitamin D...goodwilling to others and shopping I proceeded to my old bank to put money in because I still have a card there..and if you know me I cannot live without my card...and of course the bank is RIGHT next to the mall where there is Target and Old Navy...so that resulted in some shopping...but Tis' the season for buying stuff for other people when it is ON SALE!!!

I did not really feel stressed about moving today..just concerned that I will never have enough money to upgrade my account like a baller...but that is just negative thoughts because I HATE trying to find a job!

Besides feeling ill..almost seasick 19 days left was good...